Fighting against an education depression! School is for everyone no matter what our situation is! -A True Story
What I’ve learn from the past years is that everything come with a price and we cannot take things for granted. Life is not easy but we still need to live ours to the fullest because everyday is a new adventure.
Today, I write you this to tell you that life is too complicated. Life can bring out the best in you, but also the worse in you. It makes you happy, and it makes you sad, it gives and it takes back, it creates and then it destroys.
Let me tell you what life gave me.
It gave me amazing parents and a family that I will not want to change. It gave me opportunity and chances to travel the world, study in private school, amazing friends and a loving boyfriend and many more. You might ask me, why in the world am I writing this if everything sounds decent? It is because life took away my joy of living and gave me depression. My joyful life slowly collapsed in front of me.
For over six months, I’ve been feeling different things but I refused to admit that I am being depress. I am a student at Concordia University in Montreal and in the last semester, depression has taken over my body and my mind. I wasn’t able to concentrate or focus. I had family issues and life issues that has pushed my education mind far away from me. And the next thing I know, I have been dismissed from school with an email saying that I can no longer re-admit myself in Concordia for at least three years. Reading that email for the first time felt like having my lover with a dagger in his hand and stabbing me from the back. It is at that moment that I knew, I was in depression. I felt down and useless. I cannot sleep because I am scare that I will have nightmares. I was too scared to tell my parents, my friends or anybody I meet that I got kicked out of Concordia. Telling them will not only bring shame to me, but also to my family that had so much confidence in me. Education was suppose to give you a chance in life. Education was suppose to be the key to a new life. Education was suppose to be for everyone. But now I feel like education is only bringing the worse out of me, and killing me slowly inside out. I am no longer able to see my friends in the eyes and tell them the truth. I can no longer look at the man I love and tell him that my life is falling apart. I can no longer face my parents like I use to. Oh school…. This is what you have done to a girl people call merry or a bundle full of joy.
I regret the mistakes I did. I regret that I should have look for help when I could’ve and stop myself from this situation I am today. University became my second home. School always been my second home. But now, it feels like I’ve lost everything.
Depression hurts. It is very painful. I know it because I am facing it. It feels like my world is falling apart. I no longer see things in its color but mostly in grays.
I know I am not the only one with this situation, so let us all have our voices heard and be a fighter. We all should have the right to education. We all have the ability to build a stronger self. Education can not let us down but to help us forward!
Let this message travel around and let your voices heard by sharing your own stories!